No, I’m just saying
I find it a bit odd
that my LOs created
in anguish get lauded....
Interesting phenomenon for me. Apparently my distress doesn't communicate. Not really sure what, if anything, this signifies. Here are some of the LOs I was talking about.
It says SAD, but nobody sees the A. I don't think I did it intententionally. And, I really don't get how people find this stunning and compelling. Nice to hear, but I don't find it to be those things at all. I also hate the color palate, but it was for a color challenge where the color choices are supplied...
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Okay, no one thought this was a happy LO :) In the galleries there is a box below the LO. This one has the text:
My Life
Nothing fits --
The pieces don't even feel like they're from the same instrument
I don't know how to go forward from here.
Nothing fits --
The pieces don't even feel like they're from the same instrument
I don't know how to go forward from here.
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Same goes for the next two.
This is about today.
I love Christmas -- I love it 365 days a year. Even so, today,
amidst all the trappings of this wonderful celebration I felt
anything but jolly or merry.
I woke up feeling ‘ineffably sad.’ There are some ‘good’ reasons
... the anniversary of Buckaroux’s death is next week, Sunday
my husband told me he didn’t know if he could ever be
happy with me... great.
Then, on FB I read the quote on the tag and
remembered I have a purpose here on earth which is
not contingent upon or diminished by any other.
I was reminded of the phrases about being in the
“land of the living” So now I’m going to Ps 103:
Bless the Lord, O my soul, & all that is within me
Bless His holy name.
The quote: "O Lord Jesus Christ, who at thy first coming didst warn us to prepare for the day when thou shalt come to be our judge: Mercifully grant that being awake from the sleep of sin, we may
always be watching and intent upon the work thou hast given us to do; who livest and reignest with the Father and the Holy Spirit, ever one God, world without end." - W. E. Scudamore
Other texts are Psalm 27, Psalm 142 and Psalm 116.
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I love Christmas -- I love it 365 days a year. Even so, today,
amidst all the trappings of this wonderful celebration I felt
anything but jolly or merry.
I woke up feeling ‘ineffably sad.’ There are some ‘good’ reasons
... the anniversary of Buckaroux’s death is next week, Sunday
my husband told me he didn’t know if he could ever be
happy with me... great.
Then, on FB I read the quote on the tag and
remembered I have a purpose here on earth which is
not contingent upon or diminished by any other.
I was reminded of the phrases about being in the
“land of the living” So now I’m going to Ps 103:
Bless the Lord, O my soul, & all that is within me
Bless His holy name.
The quote: "O Lord Jesus Christ, who at thy first coming didst warn us to prepare for the day when thou shalt come to be our judge: Mercifully grant that being awake from the sleep of sin, we may
always be watching and intent upon the work thou hast given us to do; who livest and reignest with the Father and the Holy Spirit, ever one God, world without end." - W. E. Scudamore
Other texts are Psalm 27, Psalm 142 and Psalm 116.
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But that's not true here
...when I was in pigtails
Beloved,
I miss you so badly. Some days I just don't see how I can go on! 'My love!' I want to cry out -- for it seems as though you're missing, lost somewhere in a fierce wilderness.Oh, how I wish you'd come home to me.
Caisse-coeur
my mama done told me
when I was in pigtailsleave you to sing
blues in the night--------------------------
Journaling:
Sometimes I'm the cat - just wanting to be free. More often I'm the bird - hungry, alone, seeking shelter, exposed to the elements.
Coucou? Where is my love? I've searched below and above. Where are you my love?
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And this one surprised me at the time with it's vivid colors. Years ago when I first realized I was depressed (about 15 years after everyone else did!), a friend asked me if I was planning ways to kill myself. I wasn't. But then I realized I'd been dreaming ways I wouldn't. Sort of making an anti-list. That got me off my butt and to the counselor.
The night before I made this LO I dreamt of a way that I found acceptable. I hated that the list was back and that a solution had been found. Horrifying, distressing, depressing.
Credits:
Just Sayin: Paper by Fiddlette; Elements except people by Scoubidoo from Naturellement; Font: Milk & Cereal
For a Color Challenge (sad): Paper by Thalaris by This Crazy Intention; Flourishes from Sea Princess by Alissa Jones; Font Liquidism Part 2; Brush by Inspired by Dominic Designs (Brush Me)
Jan 19 (Broken): Alpha, elements and papers from Industrial to be released 20 January by Studio Gypsy at SBG.
Ineffably Sad: All papers and elements from Rucola Design's really cute kit North Pole. Fonts used are Pea Susela @ Fonts for Peas, Nueva Std, Jane Austen, Sylfaen, and Palatino Linotype.
Sichitiu 2 (the girl): Paper and element from Maya's Blue Moon, more elements from CJournet's Urban Grafitti (altered), and E Hansen's Distressing Toolbox; Font: Pea Jamie @ Fonts for Peas
...when I was in pigtails: image public domain; glitter style miki ferkel; the rest, me.
Sichitiu 1 (with the bird & cat): Background paper from Art Journal by Fiddlette Designs @ Catscrap; all elements from Urban Madness by Ida @ Catscrap; writing my own, one font (pass the chex) over skyscrapers.
Just for me: Papers by SQScraps (ordinary miracle collab at ESS) and Camila Designs (Magical Tale @ After 5); Splatters by Tangie Baxter (Splatter Grafitti-gold, June & Aug 09 Mystery Cases) and Diamante (It's a Chill) @ SBG; Font: Tiger Rag LET
1 comment:
That's quite a catch up blog! Some I've seen some I haven't. I truly appreciate the skill with which you put together so many elements to express the anguish and joy of you heart. I also recognize that the art form says so much more than words. Good for you.
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